It can still astonish me how things have changed. Not too long ago (as a single witness) when it was the last day of the year I would be covering my ‘examining the scripture daily’ book in plastic and reading and studying the forward. Yes, I actually did that – I was a thoroughly good witness girl when it came to preparing and reading all that I was required to. Along with that I would do the ‘diary entry’ synopsis of my year and what I learned. The proof of this is years worth of diaries up high on a shelf, unfortunately they are not that good reading, my life was not that interesting as a witness!
I would always feel trepidation when thinking of the new year, there was very little optimism attached to having to face a whole another year. It was almost like facing another year in prison (if I only I really knew…) Sometimes I would actually start to cry, the pressure of getting through another year was almost unbearable.
Now, at this very moment I am considering the logistics of taking down Christmas decorations, giving the whole area a good vacuum and overall really looking forward to a brand new year and all the interesting things, exciting things and just brand new things to look forward to. The difference is quite startling and very, very welcome.
This was my second year celebrating, and it was WAY better this time. Mum and Dad made sure we did things proper by making sure we decorated sufficiently. I even had a pretty wreath on the door.
We had a wonderful Christmas lunch at their house and I really enjoyed it, there was no silent cringing the way I did last year. I finally felt and understood what its like to be with family at Christmas time, its something really special.
Ewan had a grand time as can be expected, presents at his house and then presents at Granpa and Granma’s, it was just too wonderful for words!
I got to enjoy watching him in two Christmas plays, one for his nursery school and another at the church, he was a angel and a sheep respectively and he did really well. He looked a bit star struck, but he was mostly quiet and stuck it out even though I’m sure he was getting bored near the end.
What strikes me the most of how different things are now to last year same time is the sense of community, belonging and family that I have here. It is a good feeling and I am privileged to have made so many friends already, we have all been so completely welcomed that my fears of struggling to make friends and ‘find my place’ here just seem silly now.
A brand new year is just a short while away, and I’m thoroughly looking forward to it, life – it is good!